Tuesday, 11 April 2017

Thank You

It is quite and simply the long days out of touch with you Tshering. Now to count on the years from today(10.4.2017) it went around two years eleven months and four days since we last contacted by phone. It was evening of course, i was going to college library to get my assignments done but your call put my phone onto my ears while i was crossing the highway of South India. Of course lots of vehicles moving but despite juxtaposing myself with vehicles, i was much interested to your call, but i didn't knew it will be our last call. Anyway thank you for that call, though it was a last call i  felt happy, at least you made a call of departure. At any time if you call now or after 80 years I will be always with the greatest smile of our love to recieve your call.

To be frank i was quite immature to handle your love, for other reason you were my first love, so it went so fast than what I thought about love. Now my first love is as same as my last love. My love to you had been in childish way so I wanna ask your pardon on my way of love. So blame me for any curse you have because I couldn't educate you much. Blame for any mistake you create, as I fail to teach you. Blame me for any tears you fall as I couldn't give you happiness and blame me for everything because I couldn't keep you on hold with me. I am the source of your suffering, so let the sin be in my goes.

And with me, though you are not in my reach i must say I am always happy. Not because you went, since when we had a last call my heart always questioned me 'why did you let her go?' I am happy because I can know your every single of undate you do with your living. So i can feel as if you are still with me. Hope Buddhas above will always bless you. My prayers are with you.

The times gone were been very beautiful with you Tshering, even i can consider extra beautiful. And for me visiting Wangdue has been like i am going for pilgrimage. To the place we spent our day hours with winds after your computer classes, and more over the  house you lived at Wangdue is now my brother renting room. You know i am sleeping in the room you slept once. And do you remember some moments of our stayed Tshering? Everyday me coming to pick and drop you,  talking more than five hours under your umbrella, and our first meet at Punakha Dzong. And while we are going Punakha do you remember your feet being blistered by your hills slippers? Hehe. I do remember.  Though I die I can't forget those memories. Thank you for that Tshering. It gives me surprise laughter sometime.
Now let me tell you. Though you got a child i am still single. You may seems like am waiting for you but to be frank, it went like that, I was waiting you. But how long can i wait? If you are not married for sure my whole living can wait but for the married girl being waiting it seems like taking out the water from river. I am so sorry Tshering to inform you that I am in love with like your character girl. To introduce you about her it is going too early to make that still just as your hint, from the far relationship of relatives she is your younger sister only.

She is as simple as you but little courageous. Kind like you, hardworking like you, simple like you but in all in my eyes when my time goes with her she is weighting more than you in every field. But don't be sad Tshering, you are the Queen to  your king, just act like queen to him. But about my relationship with your far sister is, we are not in glue tide relation, more over your sister is intelligent, she is giving me a hard time to know about love. So i thank her so much.

Now everything I learnt about love from you and my lesson from you, I am going to prove her i am the best person. And Tshering help me to make her lovable.  And you will always be my loved hidden from all pain and suffering of this mundane world but loving your sister will be  with my plan of ageing together.  Thank you for adding me memories. After all we are family.

Saturday, 8 April 2017

Juno's Love

I am somewhat stuck in my game of words
Not knowing how to arrange the alphabet in line,
For how, not because i lost the trend of writings lord
But by wonder of love existing in the friendship live.

We are friend, i do admit and it is same for your feelings
We love but yes we do love each other on the hope of
And building our friendship stronger than the love-living.
But being close and best is also a danger of being best off.

I feel i am still stuck, on the truth of game i am playing.
And the truth must be revealed somehow by any means,
But who will be listening on truth? May be the words flying.
So shall the world be hearing my truth through flying winds.

 I love you Juno, but i am your friend in your mind.
You may wonder if my words reach into your ring
But now, i have no space to keep it inside my mind.
And don't ridicule Juno, i meant it with the flying wings.

My love to you, it is not the new set on this world
Some are married, with children and few are making,
And affairs out of friendship are best for this world.
So we are making best on few already been of living.

I wanna marry you, let this world know about my love,
Which i have been keeping in my secret space of heart,
With much care and respect, hidden to all i have lived.
When time left me, i bring to a surprise of your heard.

Now let the guidance know of my love to you.
Let the people of our known may know us
And let god knows about my plan about you,
So shall god above be blessing aye to us.
 I love you and marry you.


Monday, 30 January 2017

Words of the Heart

Come on! The flow of spoken words,
Spontaneous to the end of origin
And the unseen teasure of the mouth
But will of the wings, 'Heart the hero'
Simply the name-bluff, due for unanswered
As the source of spoken words are unsung.

Oh! Words of the heart, millions-
Unknown, unwritten and not feathered
Singing without the tune for, and-
Dancing without the music beats
Deep inside the unknown hall,
Just with the eagerness of every human.

Speak it! Let it be finished
Finish! I doubt even all resources dry
Words of the heart finds for the ears.
For the deaf, louder by the way
By dumb, sings with the sign
So shall the beauty of heart never fails.

Words of the heart! And of my heart-
Nearer i get, towards your warmth
The pain of shiver i creates inside,
Power of the heart dissolves under shy
And the university of words scattered,
So i mute only with the beats of heart.

Breathing with the tune, heard by ear
Louder then the cracks of thunder
But the words of wisdom lies strong
Untill i share my last remaining words
Loud to thy heart, and develop the empathy
That builds me the home inside your heart.

And shall i aim for better lives
Dwell by nobody's love and care
And shall be the best to be followed
By the thousand hearts of human
And we will be the god of love-
Teaching the meaning of words inside:
'I love you' the words of my heart for thee.

Lucky Dog

I dream about you and yourself
One day with you at same home,
That you made in my empty house.
With the dream dreaming together.

And i dream about myself and my live
Sometime with the highest lust with you
In other days sharing the stories that went,
And mostly with the pride of future together.

But when does that mean come,
And when do i get the time to share you,
Of course sometime no time,
And dreams are dreaming alone.

So if i were a dog, Mr. Tubby
Who sleeep at your bed duo,
Who get your hands everyday,
And your kisses every minute,

Who gets beautiful looks,
Eye kiss, tight hug and lift,
Food from your hands everyday,
And care and love unending,

I would consider myself the best,
Blessed, luckiest and smart.
And that would never veils
Till to the till of my ends.

If i were your Tubby,
I would promise you with promises
The ring of love back towards you,
And i would never shit at your room.

I would love to keep the promises of:
I would never break you with tears,
Never leave you alone no matter what,
And will be loving you endingly.

Will go for walk aye,
Sing for you when you are sad,
Dance while you are desperate
And cry with your pain,

Ofcourse, would never go for finding romance,
Never cheat you with lies and words,
Would help you in every way of your living.
Afterall will be around you in all allows.

So does your Tubby doing all i wish?
And if he does, consider he got my mind,
 So shall, if he is opposite to my wish,
You need to go find another Tubby.

Right Tubby of your heart,
And for the beauty of your live,
That never fails you into pain.
Good luck in finding one.

Saturday, 10 September 2016

Thank you Mother

It was at Royal Thimphu College, one of the finest colleges located in the country amidst the Himalayan range, in Bhutan.  Most of the students come from outside country across the global nations located world-wide. In such a socially connected college, a poor and unprivileged student was bestowed with a chance to be one of them but he was a pure Bhutanese with the pride of unknown nationalist; not born with Nepali origin or with the luck to be half Tibetan or other immigrants’ habitats. So does he like to be pure as he was? And he was particularly from south-eastern region of the country, Zhemgang by state.

His name is Leonardo, Leonardo Pippin Tshewang and it was given by his mother because she has a great faith on him to become like the greatest artist “Leonardo De Vinci” of our world. Of course she was not a literate woman like other mothers of the country but she had never missed her chance to listen the stories from the history text book from her first lover, so she named her son as she remembered.

 It was during the first day of his degree career at Royal Thimphu College. He has chosen his course in BA Journalism, Tourism and History; because when he looked at the job market of the country he found it was the most appropriate to fill himself. If he does not get in one he will be selected in one of the three, more over it was his particular interest to study History and Journalism as a subject from his early age of schooling. The first day, everybody attended the class; different faces each other, by the sum of 186 it made the students of Tourism department. At the first they were taken in one big room and he thought the whole students will be in one class with one section but his was wrong the students’ comfort was always seen at the most priority in the college.  The one which they were placed at first was the tourism department’s conference hall.

There, during the first day of there class, in all 186 students in one room, they had done their introduction and with small time with friends all were divided into 6 groups counting 28 members in each group but one group has a more number. That group was their section for the academic year. After they were done with section allotment everyone went to the classroom and got their class teacher and selected the class representative. The first day was very short and without the teaching made it too short.
Next morning as usual like in his previous school he went to college, that time directly to the classroom. He was first to reach and slowly all were presented and the last to reach was their lecturer.

“Good morning Ma’am” Stood up the students. “Please take your seat” taking the attendance she asked for their intro again. She was asking for the parent name also- inside he thought “if teachers were the representative of god than I hate some gods. What is the used of knowing parent name when the class is attending by the children?” while he was thinking inside, the turn reached to him. “My name is Leonardo Pippin, I am from Zhemgang, Panbang. My mother name is Tara Lisa, meaning mother of compassion and my Father name was Death Balgon.” He has given his fake father’s name.

After they were done with giving the introduction and individual details she asked one general question for them. It was beyond the track of answer for those who have their parent together sharing the love with them but not for all. Blessed were the more with few unblessed karma inside the classroom.
Lecturer- “Who is important to you, your dad or mom?”
{The reason she asked was because she is going to teach the story in their syllabus topic, “Thank you mom.”}
Students of the class- everyone inside the class roared for the Father. {For the reason she asked for individual answer}
Lecturer- “can you tell me Lucca?”
Lucca- he said, “For me I must say dad, because of him only I am here with you all. My dad is engineer he added. {He was from South Africa.}
Lecturer- asked, “Your mom?” He answered housewife.
Merry- She said, “For me also dad, because he works very hard to bring us in good society under good name and fame, I like my dad”. {She was from Korea.}
When his friends are giving such answer Leo was just boiling his heart inside. Now the chance is of Sangay.
Sangay- “For me also, obviously my dad, he gives us comfortable life to dwell. Without dad I cannot live in this world with my mother…...”  
Leonardo have interrupted his answer and banking on my desk with frustration on the given answers he asked for the immediate chance from Lecturer.

Leonardo- “Ma’am I need a chance now.” {Said in rushing breath and continued}.
Shame on you, dishonors on the people of this world and shame on you my dear friends who has opted your father in most valued coin. You are educated but not valued and you are wise but with less intelligent; you don’t know that the day you come in this world you are with full of suffering, then who gave you this careless life? Your mother has carried you for nine months inside her womb, giving everything half of hers to you. If your mother have known that you will do like this for her while you were in her womb, she would have eaten a medicines or done abortion and had been killed you, but you all were lucky {soft tone}. She has sacrificed her lives for you. What you have inside is the share of your mother. And she has cleaned your every dirty dung that came from you.  She carried you on her back while in sick of herself also, and given enough love on you.

Don’t you know that? {Looking at friends} don’t you feel shy to say more on what you have said? {The class went silent}
Leonardo- I will tell you a story that my mom narrated to me, then give me an answer.

He was eight days old baby after coming in this world as the joy of his mother {Role the tears remembering the pain of his mother}. His father went to other places with the reason which was unknown to his wife but far, a very far from her was only known answer to the poor mother of eight days baby. Name of the place, his visiting purpose and the distance were unknown, still unknown. Mom was in his house since one month before, taken as a new groom. The day she went there her father-in-law and mother –in-law were always in black eyes to her.  But situation became worst after she gave birth, when her child started to mess inside the house with his innocent live. After the departure of child’s dad, the in-laws started to scold and beat child’s mother, beyond her right of human. But at the same time reaction of the brief-groom wasn’t been same, she thought of leaving that house while they treated her like as if she didn’t have her own house to dwell. He said to the class- The mother of the child was my own mother and the child refers to me. And continued with his connection-Then she (mother) changed the planed and stared with new one.  The plan was {he wiped his tears}

It was one late night, a very late night of unearthly hours, the star didn’t give bright light and moon was absent in her routine up upon the sky. When my mom planed to get out of the room of prison god blessed her with the rain that made the plan more comfortable. It was 12 o’clock night exactly when she stepped her right leg to move forward looking for the comfortable home. The room which was given to her was located near the window towards veranda and the way to outside was blocked by the bed of in-laws. Slowly and steadily, she sent me out of the window to veranda first, an eight days baby. When it was in process so, a bright lightening represented as a light to check the cleanness of the veranda and loud thundering helped to equalize the sound of opening window. Then she prayed “Please god never let my beloved child to cry. What I am doing is all doing for his better future” and later she came out. But remember we came out of the house without carrying any piece of cloth. After getting out then she had driven me towards her home by her foot but her energy was exhausted within a short distance of walks. The truth was she never had a good food after my birth. She had fallen down on ground luckily near to the dried stream which flows near from the prison house in summer. {And it flows from the nearby the house of her parent}.

After sometime when she woke up and live with sense it was almost one o’clock in morning {got from looking at the seven stars position, earliest way of making the time} by that time, river was also swollen and slowly rain started to reduce its volume. Now by very weaken energetic women she got a good plan to reach me in her home.  Instead of walking she planned to travel by the force of river driving with summer load of logs and rocks and nearly after two hours on the river force we reached home, it was almost 4 am by then. In her house everyone was shocked to see us alive nevertheless without wasting time the help of her parent were aids into immediate and we were taken care and given necessary aids and from that day only she had given my name as Leonardo.
{Leonardo took a seat. In case a small handkerchief was thrown from front bench to him but unknown by himself that kind hearted person}

Lecturer- please Leonardo, can you continue your story, we are all eager to listen it. {From here by sitting only he continued}
Then for me the story was narrented by her sister in law(my mom' so brother wife) - When we reached there I was fully covered with dust, leaves and mud. My mother was as if like death, because they kept her without serving food for five days. The family whom my mom supposed to be called married was one of the richest and powerful families during their time but full of ego, greed, jealousy and anger. They were like thrown people by the society to the hell. What is the use of being rich when they see the hunger inside the room? What is the use of being strong when they see the weaker beating in front of them and can’t help?

And the family of my mom being inferior to them they could not do anything and laws were not meant for rich and powerful and justice was not been in the words of poor and inferior.
After getting sense to my mother back from her death, she had expected her husband could come back to get his son and wife but the news after a month made her clear that he will not come. She heard her husband was married with another woman. How could the father of eight days old baby do that? Why the rude of all boys was bestowed to my boy’s father? Several thoughts on her mind but more importantly life of baby to think were her tears. Then the live of my life was solely been for her.
What can woman do? {Asked for the class} Definitely child needs father and mother to call upon when others are calling and woman should need husband to ask something for their child, Father or mother now?

{Showing the struggles of mother}
Everything got changed now. Slowly my age grown up with a year and I have started knowing the language of what they talk, by this it inspired my mother. Then the age of schooling has come for me but the concern of my schooling was from the day of my speaking. I have asked my mother all the time about “I want to go school.” When the age comes she never neglected my need and sent me school. That was her greatest care on her child. I am the luckiest from the lucky friends you all. I know you all are the people who believe in luck but me, I don’t believe in it but I am the one who never believe in luck but the luckiest from you all.

But thinking on it, why does she send me to school? Where she can manage the expenditure? It was my question I should ask to you “My Listener” but she was so wise it didn’t give the forum for you all to ask. She had discovered her talent in weaving and it was the main income to feed us and sent me to school.

It was during my first primary schooling days- if i remember vividly on it, inside the class my teacher asked me about my parent name. I said the name of my mother and in case of my father I said, “I don’t know sir” by this innocent act by innocent child my teacher sent me out of the class. At those ages and grades sending out of the classes means a coward on the face of student. He was the innocent teacher too. I cried for the whole day and night, however my mother could console it and got back in school. She used to weave clothes for all the hours day and night and I was most of the time in school, reading and reading, now when I realize all library cards will be with my name in the room of my school library.  But the love and care of my mother to me was always greater from the all kind of loves in this world. She will come all the time to pick me and fetch me a lunch, didn’t even miss a single day. I can remember that.

When days went in schooling in the exams I came always in first position from my batch that was the greatest inspiration to my mom. When I stood first in mid-term examination I have received the gift from unknown person. A pair of shoes and set of gho with words written, “Congratulations Leonardo”’ I didn’t wear it instead waited for the special occasion to come.
It was during our annual concert show, when my awaited occasion has come. So I wore the gift and sang a song which my mom taught me about her love to my dad.
This world depends on how we see,
For the river some will call as water,
For the fish river is their home.
Like the sky is home for sun, moon, planets and stars.

Human name its depends on how we call
For some I will be their daughter,
Other will call me as relatives
But you can call me as your darling.

For the thousand of eyes I may not be their angel,
Like I was not the daughter of thousand parents
But what is the use of being the angel of thousand eyes
Our destiny and marriage should be for one.

You are the desire of my love
Day and night doesn’t have any distinction for my love
They are just an addition on our love
Like the seasons for the year.

The known life is for only once though we have thousand of rebirths
Rebirth of each life is a new live
So our loves is for this life and for the next let’s keep our prayers.
Prayers that can help us to meet again in next life

{The one who gave the gift was sitting in the audience line with her parent, seeing the matching of her gift she had gifted for her love but she could not tell him, instead arranged again the mysterious gift.}
Leonardo expected that he will find the person who gave him gift but could not meet. In the morning again he found the gift outside in the same place, written, “You sang well, keep singing”. That time the gifts were books, watch and slippers.
Now i was afraid of taking the mysterious thing and asked the mother that i will rather take in class and find the person who left it on our door step.
After reaching school, during the assembly hours I went in front of the audience and showed the gift as ‘lost and found’.  On it a one fat man came and claimed for that thing.
With dirty look, “thank you”- Fat boy.
{The one who gave it as a gift to him was in the line and even could not tell anything, she just felt sorry to herself. But she was keeping a diary of every account.}
{Without explaining the love of that girl her parent got transfer in northern Part of the county, Thimphu, so it made her in great pang of love sick. Even could not give words about her parents’ transfer to him. Left incomplete in her love}
After she went transfer the fat boy who claimed for the gift had beaten him mercilessly and took the previous gift also which he was wearing at a time and sent him back to home from school in naked, only in under wear. {“He” the fat boy was wearing a black face cover hat to hide his identity}.
{By the care of his mother only, Leonardo had completed his village based school always as a topper in every academic year.}
Leonardo- “After completing my school 12 grade, when the different colleges of the country gave a scholarship opportunity, I was selected as one here at Royal Thimphu College. Everyone clapped for him. Mother, mother….. They shouted inside the class and day went over.
{The one who gave a mysterious gift to Leonardo was also in the same class at Royal Thimphu College. But he doesn’t know about that. The effort on love was only kept by the girl because it was her who loves him very much from her childhood. She knew him very well and she had been collecting his photos from his village based school. The one who gave him handkerchief was also her. From here her love on him was also grown so depth and more she wanted to play game with him like earlier.}
{When Leonardo went out of the class}
Papu- Hey! Hey! Man- where are you staying?
Leonardo- Near to college only- not too far.
Papu- with whom you are staying? Anyway I like our story Leo.
Leonardo- I am staying alone- thanks
Papu- then can I stay with you- I am from Nigeria.
Leonardo- if you like ya sure you can. I offered him a chance.
Next day I got a friend called Lethro, who also stayed with me, he was from Gelephu, by evening again one friend from Korea called Kim added the bed, and we were four from same class arranged by our previous karma.
Now Leonardo had given the brief on room management. “No smoking, No drinks, No women.” Everybody accepted his words. Leonardo was always bestowed with good characters.
It was after three days, early in the morning Leonardo went to college and his friend left at room only. That time he found Mona Lisa Zangmo his class mate, giving smile early in the morning and coming towards him.
Surprisingly she was asking him a handkerchief, at first he acted like he didn’t understand what she is talking about.
Leonardo- Excuse me... What did you say?
Mona- {with her pitch voice} I said where my handkerchief is.
Leonardo- {in confused} when did I take it?
Mona- doesn’t act like you didn’t. Inside the class while you are crying like kid.
{The handkerchief was lost and while he check his pocket he remembered he don’t have money, now the last option he found was to tell her, he loves her. It may work}
Leonardo-sorry Mona I have lost it, I thought that you gave me out of your love.
{Mona however loves him very much from her childhood only but she doesn’t want to accept now because she has a plan of giving him a chance to complete his education well} instead she said.
Mona- what? I want it now! {Spoke seriously}
{Instead of going to class he went back to room and asked for money from his friends for buying new handkerchief for Mona. But the real handkerchief was hidden by Hassan because he loved her at first sight and he saw Mona throwing it to him while he was crying. But when he knew that Mona loves Leonardo he did give-up. Leonardo bought new one and given to her in the class.
Leonardo- Sorry Mona, I didn’t know it was yours so I bought it new one to you please do accept it. Actually the truth is I wash you handkerchief and kept it dried outside but when I went to collect I didn’t find it, I think wind took it. Sorry please.
Mona- You need not have to wash it; I have given it to you because I wanted to do some experiment on the tears between man and woman. Anyway thank you.
{Taking handkerchief she went to the isolated and empty place and prayed. Please god I don’t meant that, I love him but I don’t want him to know and get disturb in his studies.  Please don't hurt him.}
Such a rude girl rare to find on this earth {rose the thought about her in him}
By then all of the roommates reached class. From the first period of the class we got the circular that the celebration of College day after one week. All the students from the college have to practice the dance after the classes get over. Leonardo was there but not in dance just as an audience helping them in fetching the things here and there. He doesn’t know how to dance and ironically every friend is asking about his dance only. But the reply was no, no, no…
[But the Mona is going to dance. She is going to dance on the song which is loved by Leonardo’s mother. That he sung in his school once. And that is the only song he loved by so far. For that song Mona had already known that Leonardo will come and dance so to keep out of his known it was being practiced inside the hostel. And Mona is purposefully going to dance for Leonardo}.
Now the show was going to happen tomorrow evening. Mona was wondering what kind of gift would appropriate for Leonardo. That evening she went to the biggest shopping plaza in the capital and directly went to Handicrafts show room. From there she bought an expensive gho with the finest weaving pattern. Expecting that he will come tomorrow wearing that suit. Wrapping it by nice gift paper and rose flower on it writing “to Leonardo” at 12 noon she went to Leonardo’s room and she left it from the toilet window which was left opened and put inside the toilet.  
In the morning it was found by Papu while he was going for his routine inside the toilet. {Masturbation- the only game he could play, only hobby he have, the only time past he had and the only interest he was in.}
Papu- Leonardo! Leonardo! Happy College day, this is my gift to you.
Leonardo-are you sure it is for me?                    
Papu- check it
Leonardo- giving a hug, said thanks. {He opened the gift and checked it whether it is fitting or not to him.} Then only
Papu- it is not from me Leonardo, I found it inside the toilet when I was going for my work inside.
{Suddenly with exclamation, He undressed it and kept where it was}
He thought of the day nice beating that he got in his school while in primary grade because of that mysterious gift now he planned to take that to announce it on college day as a lost and found.
Mona was expecting Mr. Leonardo to come on her suit. And been awaiting and waiting outside the hall looking towards gate. He didn’t turn up. After long awaited hours the programme got started and it was to be starts by Mona’s group dance. She went inside for the preparation.
The music of Mona’s group dance was played and played in high volume. In the room Leonardo and his friends were on their own world with their personal work.  When the music was put in high volume it was being heard from the house of Leonardo and directly went to Leonardo’s ears. As soon as he heard that music, which he loved, with his all friends went to dance at college. {Leonardo with jean and half shirt dressing and a bag on his hand, Papu with long shirt and half paint, Lethro with different colour of shoes and Kim with bucket on his hand}
Leonardo- My mother, my mother! It is my mother’s…  {He didn’t reach full sentence of what he is going to say. Just kept on running and within a minute they reach on stage and started to dance with group.
{They all were dancing in their own world with Mona’s group very seriously. The audiences were shouting for them with excess laughing from their mouth.}
{Same lyric but should be sung by girl’s voice.}
This world depends on how we see,
For the river some will call as water,
For the fish river is their home.
Like the sky is home for sun, moon, planets and stars.

Human name its depends on how we call
For some I will be their daughter,
Other will call me as relatives
But you can call me as your darling.

For the thousand of eyes I may not be their angel,
Like I was not the daughter of thousand parents
But what is the use of being the angel of thousand eyes
Our destiny and marriage should be for one.

You are the desire of my love
Day and night doesn’t have any distinction for my love
They are just an addition on our love
Like a season of the years.

The known life is for only once though we have thousand of rebirths
Rebirth of each life is a new live
So our loves is for this life and for the next let’s keep our prayers.
Prayers that can help us to meet again in next life.
-After a dance-
Mona-who told you to come and disturb our dance? {Actually she was very happy to see him dancing with her.}
Leonardo- I didn’t come here to disturb your group instead I come here to get the owner of this bag. {She was shocked but could not tell anything}
Leonardo- from the stage-shouting to the audience: I don’t know from where such gifts are coming to me. It was from my childhood schooling that I was confused with such mysterious gift to me. Now I don’t want to keep with me and don’t want to wear it. Because of this gift I was badly beaten into bloodshed in my school. I know same will happen here if I wear it so I don’t want any scene here. If someone come and claims it I am going to enquire that coward. If you want to give gift come forward and I will do accept it. I hate those cowards. Don’t act like cockroach. They have a habit of playing with us hiding.
{The girl was crying outside because she could not bear the pain of Leonardo.}
{The boy who had beaten Leonardo in his school was also presented in the college and that day he was in the audience lining and did not claim for the gift because of guilty.}
{In the room they were talking among friends}
Papu- I enjoyed dancing and it was my first dancing ever on stage. Am I a good dancer?
Kim- you really dance well man but need to train your ass. {Laughter cracked in their room}
Lethro- but Leonardo, why you took us in so hurriedly for that dance? Is that because of Mona?
Leonardo- Mona? She is the most hatred girl in this world my eyes have
{He explained the reason}
The song was my mom’s favorite one. She taught me {he remembered their learning of his small age. Talking in the middle of vast field. Leo used to directly go to her mother after coming back from school, in his school dress undress. Shouting in the pitch of his voice calling mother...... mother.... he could join his mom in the field.  When his mother get tired of working she would take a short rest and teach him a singing, which could also relax herself from long working hours. These are what he remembers now;
Mother- Leonardo? Come here. I am going to teach you a song.
Leonardo – why mom? I hate singing.
Mother- No Leonardo, in school your teacher will ask you to sing that time they will beat you if you don’t sing. Ok?
Leonardo- Ok mom I got it.)
Leonardo and Lethro went outside to buy water and two of them left in room preparing diner. They heard the sound of fighting. For sure the groups were fighting in the middle of shops. Leonardo and Lethro went to that scene and interrupted the great fight. From the huge crowded Leonardo saying….. Please, please and please he went into the group. And standing bit higher from the other position he said-
Please friends listen here for a short period of time. I know and by looking onto your face I can make out that today you all going to have big fight, which is good. I too love fighting. But what I wanted to tell you is why you wanted to have fight? Before you fight I want to say few words so please do not despair. From your group someone is going to die in the middle of you all. He will be someone’s friend, someone’s best friend, someone’s boyfriend, someone’s son and someone’s enemy. Nobody is going to save him from his death but I can save him only if you all follow my instruction. You all will cry even the one who kills him because he will leave you a heart touching words for you all. That will be a lesson for you all. Moreover, yes we are from different places of this world; some from north, some from south, some from east and some from west. You all don’t know how difficult our god like Jesus, Vishnu, and Buddha struggled to arranged us here together from many distance. To send you here who knows your parent might be dying out of hunger. Some might be going to prison out of loan. Some might be doing prostitution and you are still their hope, but hopeful students are fighting here for death. It is not fair for them, back who are struggling. Yes t is true that we are from different places but the question is not, do we have same colour, hair and language but can we suffer? You have to respect your own karma the law of cause and effect. We have same responsibility to guard our karma. Now we are all same. After few second it will be unfair for those who die in fighting.
{All scattered and one old shopkeeper came and said Thank you son.}
Lethro-you are really genius Leo.
Leonardo- no! They were innocent. {Taking the bottle of water they went to their room}
Dinner was already readied and after taking dinner as usual went for bed.
In the college department’s board the time table of the university examination was declared and after exams Leonardo planned to go his home town. While others his friends will be staying in college only.
It was during his journey towards his home inside the Bus. He had met with one gentle man going to Gelephu, came to Thimphu for his official meeting. They had a good time talking each other for a long journey.
The Bus man knew him and his mother because he had been in his place for some years earlier. They had good conversation about the family. He knew his father also and though he knew Leonardo didn’t ask any thing about his father. Instead he asked-
Bus man- how do you feel about your father? Don’t you miss him?
Leonardo- I don’t have any feeling about the word father. I feel proud of myself and my mother, because of father we had gained the value of not supposed to be gained in our lives. When my friends call upon their father I feel proud to call mother who took both responsibilities of two titles {father and mother} I don’t miss him and I don’t want to see him too. I don’t want to find his grave yard and his son never has to go and offer flowers for several times. He had given me a ears but made into hearing by my mom, he had given me a eyes but made into seeing by my mom, he had given me a mouth but helped by mother to grow teeth, he had given me a nose but sense of smelling was put by my mother, he had given me a lungs but oxygen by mother, after all no use of nose, ears, eyes, moth and lungs without sense. Why I have to miss a person whom I don’t see? I don’t need the father who doesn’t know the smell of my shits.
{That hurts the bus man much. He went to his friend’s bed and instead of him his friend came and seated with me.}
The bus man went to his friend bed and wrote a letter and in it he packed a sum of Ngultrum 10,000 in a red envelope.
It was in Phuntsholing, the last station of their bus. When all were getting out the old man came and gave the envelope to Leonardo. Then he despaired. Now they were gone for different places from different ways.
He took a hotel for his night on his way to village. There he had opened the envelope given by the bus man; he found Ngultrum 10,000 and a letter.
Dear Ulysses
Nice to meet with you, I hope I will die without meeting you but fate had arranged us together, it fulfills my greatest desire. Now if I die today also I don’t have any regret. Sorry for everything that I and my family had done for you and your mom.  I love the sense you have developed and love to your mother.
Your Hatred dad
Roodin
Reading this it hurt Leonardo very much. Thinking on the relation of father and son, father and mother, and mother and son but thinking on the love of her mother and her hard work he did not role the tears of sadness. That was his strongest and from their only he knew his real name- Ulysses.
The money which was inside the envelope by his father was given to the Buddhist monastery. And he prayed- “please god, keep this money with you as expenditure to his funeral. Help this world to get rid of such problem like of mine and in future arrange me with both father and mother living together”.
He reached home- his mother was still weaving, putting big glasses on her face, looking at her his tears role unconditionally.
Mother- come on my dear son {gave a warm hug and kissed on his check.}
Then he shared his dream to mother.
Leonardo- mother now you don’t have to struggle much with your weaving. I am completing my studies and I will find a job that will be enough for us and we will stay whole life together. And mother you should come during my graduation day in my college.
Mother had agreed to come as he said.
It was after one month spending whole vacation in his village. He went back to college.
Boy’s group- welcome back to our roommate Mr. Leonardo. {His roommates had arranged a great celebration with big cake and the cake was gift from unknown found in the room written words- give it to Leonardo as you all are welcoming him back to college. But it was given by Mona.}
Papu- though I am bad addicted man in bad habit I am always good I consider myself because I am truthful, trustworthy and helping, and looking at Leonardo- this cake is a gift from unknown person Leo. We are sorry! And he showed the cover to him.
Leonardo-I don’t know what is going on here. {With smiling on face} let it go, thanks god for your Cake.
Lethro- god! Does this sent by you?
Leonardo- Representative of god on this earth, crazy about me from my childhood life; only one and it will be same here. {Looking at cake} take it all, friends- one day we will find out the person whom we wanted to see.
{Mona heard those words from outside from the toilet window. Accidently with the eagerness to listen Leo’s voice she came and was the only way through toilet window. The smelling of toilet was so horrible still she love to be in it, just because of her madness in love. She was inspired by now.}
Kim- took the audience in his eyes- now the birthday of our one friend is coming.
Papu- whose? Is it yours?
Kim- No off course of Leo. {It was heard from outside by Mona.}
Lethro- when it is?
Leonardo- 28 Feb. 1993 But I don’t wanted to celebrate it friends. I am very sorry. I don’t have enough money.
His three friends- Don’t worry Leo. We are here for you.
{Mona thinking on it from outside felt sympathy and said 28 Feb. don’t worry darling I am here with you, your future wife. I will gift you the most important gift that world never receive so far. Going at room she was thinking on his gift}
Mona- writing about him in a diary lying on her bed she found four important traits about him- smart, simple, hardworking and bookwarm. From all she is going to make which one is most matching o him.
On paper she tried- a) smart- needs smart cloth, medicine to apply, new clothing etc. on that she rejected it thinking it will not help him, then went for second.
b) simple- need simple dressing and all simple thing- No, no, no I don’t want him to be simple. Rose with frustration.
c) Hardworking- that sounds great but he is intelligent to. Thinking on it she went for the last.
d) Bookwarm- I know he is much interested to books and reading. “Books are the windows to the next world. If I give books to him he will learn many values, she speak to herself. That’s great book will be my gift for him.
{Early in the morning she went to book shop with her friend.}
{She remembered his height 6.6 ft}
She collected as many books as to make height of 6.6 ft. after long hours of collection she got exactly on the height of what she needed. Piling one after another books she made it to 6.6ft by last small book title with the “How to influence people and make friend” as a last selection.   They went back to their place and reaching room she started to write a word of birthday on her gift.
Mona- In her lines- Leonardo, now we are getting so close to your graduation day and more I think on it more I become mad on you. At the same time it shows now we are getting close to revealing each other. Yes I was one person playing whole game with you from your childhood. But now accept my simple gift and don’t take it to your class and announce it as lost and found- it hurts me a lot. Explore the world from your height. {She kept the book at door of his house piling making it 6.6ft on top her letter on 12 o’clock night on 28 Feb.}
With cake and food only they had celebrated the special day of Leonardo.
After that when they opened the door they found a surprise, huge books standing in front of door, taller than the three friends of Leonardo.
For that gift, he can’t reject because next to his mother he love the books so the alternative he has was….
Taking that letter he went inside and gave a prayer- “please god don’t put me in trouble if you are really existing in our unseen side please now sent that person to me, please god I want to see that person”.
{Books are always his best friend. If his enemy gives him a book also he will do accept it}
Then they went for walk outside, it was getting close to evening. On their way they found a group of taxi drivers drinking alcohol under a tree. It touched the heart of Leonardo. He hates those who drink alcohol by low earning people.
 Leonardo- {to taxi drivers} you all are in group today and we are only four. You have deceived us for many times taking high fares in short distance and now we are going to have fight. {One of the taxi drivers threw the wine bottle and hit Leonardo’s leg.} Still he said, wait I need your entire group here in our area, we are going to have big gang fight.
Lethro- thinking... “Gang Fight? Leonardo! What are you doing? Are you mad? They will kill us Leo”. {He was scared}
Leonardo- Lethro we will die one day so let’s die today together here. Don’t be scare of this death, it is simple, and it needs only three second but fight well.
One of the taxi drivers said- no we will do for them. No need to call others.
Leonardo- No, you can’t defeat us. {He boosts his friend’s talents.} My friend Lethro has done taekwondo black belt and was a teacher for many institutes. Papu had done Karate and Papu said “ya I did it for some years. He said. Only it was real, he thought inside. Kim is a kongfu master and I am boxer champion trained by Marry Kom.  
Taxi drivers- called all over their friends saying many master are here so they are going to have fight with us. {Within a minute they reached all}
His friends were so scared.
Now it was a chance for Leonardo to beat one of them so badly that time but Mona was also been gone for walk with her friends. She was bit in sexy dressed up that provokes the man temptation. She saw Leonardo in the middle of the tooled taxi drivers.
Mona ran towards Leonardo {she thought they are having fight] - while running
Leonardo- listen my dear dad like friends, {she heard that words and stopped on middle of taxi drivers} today we are going to have big fight among us but we are just four and you are in cross hundred. Don’t you feel mercy on us?
I gathered all of you to meet here because I saw group of your friends drinking alcohol under the tree from the money they hardly earned working for the whole day. We are not having fight because we are loser for sure. But want to give lesson for you all. You all must be having children at home, wife and family. For them only you are working day and night driving taxi of loan to earn for living. You work very hard and I salute you all but you waste it for wine drinking-more than what you have earned in a day.
Who knows while you are drinking in here, at you house- your wife might be waiting for oil to cook. Who knows your son and daughter might be waiting for the pen from you, in some case your child might have slept without food today. But see here expecting father in home are having wine without any concern. This is not a good father. Drinking is sin as per all religions philosophy, but you love the religion very deeply, it is not fair. In your house when god sees you are drunk he might be so sad of you. God will never bless you for those who drink and waste money like this, for that reason only your whole life is with old taxi without promotion to new one like Taxi and car. {One of the taxi drivers went out of the group.}
{Taxi drivers were talking among themselves, some said he is like god. Some said like son of god…. But the greatest changes was many taxi drivers left drinking wine in that area}
When all the taxi drivers went out of the gathering in the emptiness Mona was only standing, as if lost in the middle of Sahara desert. After knowing she was in alone, she ran towards Leonardo and gave him a hug, tight hug. But Leonardo was hurt by her action of handkerchief and remembered that too.
Mona- you did well for them.
Leonardo- Mona you are so rude I have known in this world, go out of me. What are you going to do with me now? I hate you from the day I saw you here in this college.
{It hurts Mona a lot. With her unconditional tears she went to her room. Inside she had planned for everything to do now and the option she found was to reveal him that she was the girl who kept all those mysterious play so far to him, and as she did.}
At 8 pm she went to Leonardo’s room, covering her whole face and body with a cloth. She seated in front of the door showing her back to them and kept her gift just to the cover of their sight with written words “give it to Leonardo”. Then she knocked the door.
Lethro- Leonardo it is for you. Gift again.
Leonardo came and he had removed the cover of the gift it was a diary with the topic “revealing the unwritten love of Mona”.  Then he uncovered the big gift covered by the cloth. It was Mona crying inside he found.
Leonardo- what are you doing here Mona? I said I hate you.
Mona- You hates me because you don’t know who I am. I am stranger to you newly added friend but for me you are my childhood friend from our village school. I thought you would love me but I was wrong in my thought. My name was not written in your love. I am here because you might have asked for god to send me here so I came. If you hate me than I am sorry I must go home but read that diary. {Thinking nothing, just with tears she went back to her room.
Leonardo started reading the diary of a poor girl and asked the question.
Leonardo- Lethro do you believe her? {Continued reading}
Lethro- I do believe her, she really loves you Leo.
While reading he found everything about her love from schooling days. Now he had known that Mona was his girl who gave a mysterious gift at school also. She had written her details of parents transfer and her love sick on him. So she kept all the record of their love starting from first gift to the last, even collecting his all photos from their school website. All were printed out and pasted in her diary in which Leonardo is reading now. He didn’t sleep whole night reading her words.
Next day early in the morning he went to her room and stayed outside door waiting her to come out. As soon as she comes out Leonardo pull her and gave his ever first Lips kiss in front of random walkers putting his one hand on her hand and another at her tits. She was surprised however for her it is only the dream she had dreamt for.  Then slowly he said sorry to her, but she wasn’t hurt anymore because she knew it was all because of her only. This was how their love started and Leonardo also loves her from hereto. Mona fulfilled the most desire of her childhood and one entered into the world of romance.
{But Mona’s mysterious gift never end here, she wanted to get the boy who has beaten him after she left the school from her village.}
Inside the class when Leonardo and his friend Lethro went outside, Mona came to his sit and kept ngultrum five thousand in his bag and confirmed his two other friends that she is going to find who has beaten him while in village school and they have to keep secret from Leonardo. However they agreed.
When he came back he found it mysterious again. He had given the announcement about the lost and found of that money inside the class. Nobody claim but the news spread so fast to other department also. Lastly it reached to Mr. Bongku.
Now he planned to claim for it.
Bongku- I have lost my money Leonardo.
Leonardo- then how it will reach in my bag? We are from different class.
Bongku- My friends wanted to check your loyalties so they took my money and kept in your bag while you were going outside. {Leonardo asked his friend he said yes Leo.}
Leonardo gave it to him while giving him money back he saw his half pointing finger of his right hand which he saw in his school when we was beaten by covered face boy. What so ever he doesn’t want to hurt him and he was by nature only so kind hearted. But from the unknown sight Mona and other two friends were looking on him. They saw Bongku taking money and without informing Leonardo- led my Mona and three of them went outside to catch Bongku.
Silently from the outside gate of college they had covered his face by cloth in sudden and taken him to their room.
Bongku- Please let me free! Who are you?
Three of them had beaten him mercilessly and lately Lethro and Leonardo reached room. When they reached at room they found Bongku beating by his three a team.
Leonardo- Stop it! {Out of loud voice} why are you beating him, this innocent man? What you will get from him? {He asked to Mona} Mona why are you doing this?
Mona- the money you found in your bag was mine. I kept it while you and Lethro went out. If you don’t agree me ask your two friends. {From the side they shook their head} I did because I wanted to see that man, who had beaten you claiming for my gift.
Leonardo- please Mona don’t play such game, it hurts me a lot. {Mona ran towards Leonardo and hugs him as if her last hug in this world. Sorry Leonardo, I don’t mean you in what you have thought.
He continued… I know the one who had beaten me was you Bongku from your half finger that I saw when I was beaten by you in my way to home. I know you were the one wo took Mona’s gift from me in school but now by knowing you I don’t want to do anything for you. Instead want to ask one favour- please don’t do like these from now onwards. Other people will kill you. He asked what happen to his finger.
Bongku- it was cut given by one of the shopkeeper in Village when I have stolen money from his shop. I felt regret now. And continued to tell his story, “it was after three months transferred of Mona to Thimphu my parents got new placement at Paro and I have continued my education in that place. I always love to be always with branded dressing but my parent could not possess what I want. I ask by parent to buy me a suit but they didn’t while I was in same school of we were  but could not purchase then I saw you announcing on the thing I like so I claimed for that. The next day I saw you wearing that gho which turned my eyes on your dress so I have beaten you and took your dress. For all I am sorry Leonardo.” They sent him.
Now the gradation day was been so near. Leonardo was expecting his mother to come, that evening he called his mother and she agreed to start the journey by tomorrow from Panbang to Thimphu.
It was the graduation day inside the college. Leonardo came in most expensive gho given by his darling Mona. But he wasn’t satisfied because he was not graced by his important pillar of his life, his mother. Slowly started to reach all the distinguish guest of the day and the time has come to declare the student of the year [best student and the university topper].
Principal went on the stage and gave away the short speech after that he called upon the chair man to give away the honor of student of the year.  While name was being read out it goes to Leonardo Pippin. He received the medals and prizes.
Then the turn favoured to give the speech by him.
Leonardo- A warm welcome to you all; I don’t have a word to you all because you all

are better than me but it force me to share you all that today we are on the day that we have dreamt from the day we joint our schooling. We were innocent, illiterate, unaware, and uneducated but now we are at the crest of Everest. Our legs, hands and wings of our education made us to fly up upon the sky, walk beyond the desert and to help for the neediest one. From today onwards we have to find our own way by the wings of education.
We have a good set of memory from education so never forget that, be it bad or good it is just a memory to be cherished. {While he focused his eyes to the audience he saw his mother}
So today it is my day to reveal my most important two pillars of my life. My mother Tara Lisa, please mother come on stage. And my ever best friend Mona Lisa, please come on stage. Today is the day where Leonardo will start to draw the picture of Mona Lisa. They were my strongest pillar for my education so, my pride of graduation I want to share with them. [Leonardo put away his graduation hat to his mother and graduation gown to his wife Mona Lisa. {Music was played from the back stage}
After that mother had narrated all about the Bongku hospitality to Leonardo-
Mother- after three days travelling in bus I reached here at college. And I asked randomly to one of the students from here but it was Bongku who helped me out. However he had recognized me and taken to his room. He said you were not here in college and went to university for some official works. Then I stayed with him in his house.
While they were about to leave college gate Bongku came behind and called Leonardo and his team. And he said, "I made your mother’s plan because I wanted to give you a surprise in your day".
Hugging each other completed the scene. 

Thursday, 8 September 2016

What is literature?

"In the early billion of years consider during the big bang age literature was not known as anything.
For the other millions of years the literature has been only needed for job or employment.
And for another thousand of years the literature is considered as indeed most needed for living.
But for the coming billion of years literature will be like a human soul indispensable for lives".                                                               -Auth Sangay Tshewang

What is literature? Although the history may take us into the early centuries, the evolution of the word literature must date back to the starts of human existence. The very day of human existence is another consideration of literature starting because the uses of paintings, drawings and signs are being used for the  communication purposes. But the arrangement of the elements on the dialogue human speaks started from the early eras of Hebrews' history. From the millions of languages being used in this world by different countries, societies, religions, schools and people the first to be known as language is consider as Hebrew language. The language of Jews. From that nook of written literature, as we look into our age now we see lots of development and implementation of literature. Now to us the very word Literature comes in our mind is an art works compile by human that is provocative to another human being, so it includes all kinds of writings Like poetry, stories, essay, lyrics, books and so on.

While going in depth of literature view the each contain have its own function of conveying messages to the other human. In nutshell studies; The poetry reveals the short and sweet understanding of the scenario. Story depicts the imagination and History of yester years. Lyrics give us the tune of soul and emotion. Novel shows the creativity of the author and shorter writings news us with the different situations. These are the levels function by different genres of literature.

Most of all in general, literature has only one understanding. In common all the literature works provide immense hours of entertainment and escape from different times and situations. During the stressful days we can escape ourselves by entering into the pages of book or literature work totally going beyond the reality we doesn't like. How ever it depends on how you chose the literature genre.

So here it ends my short literature work based on my own understanding of the topic, What is literature? For the remembrance of the topic once again literature it is an art work that liberates us with its contain. 

Practice of Bodhichhita.

If we examine carefully on what we do every minute of our living, we will find our lives rooted with the action of selfishness. You may do something for your selfless action of benefit, but in reality you are not free from the action of selfishness. Just to simplify- say it, if you are working for the construction of chorten, dzong, and any religious function ornament, though someone tends to work thinking my labour may help other but nobody is going to work for free till its completion. Because survival is most important on top accumulation of wealth is even in Greater importance for all livings.

 For today, what I want to focus is on practice of Bodhichhita for becoming bodhisattva. Every human even the smallest living creatures say like ant, worm, and bees- they desire to live in happy and peace, since in this Samsara being our ignorance on top of every action we take we never find the peace, though the peace is within ourselves. Nevertheless finding peace and happiness has always been one of the easiest finding the someone has found.  But only one who practice Bodhichhita with the combination of all three parts- body, mind and speech.

As a bodhisattva practicetionar we have to change the attitudes of thinking "i" and need not have to give more importance on it. In the focus of I,  one have to think "my body is the servant of my mind and I m the judge of my body and mind who can reveal the sin of both body and mind to the God of death". So bodhisattva should remember the practice of Bodhichhita. Which means to extend the mind to other creatures.
Buddhi refers to the extention and Chitta to the mind.  To sum up these two it means the extention of mind for other livings comparing ourselves as a centre of focus.

In the vital studies of Bodhichhita more importantly it focus on our mind. The practice of mind to tame in best attitudes. If we think on it, the room in our mind is sometimes so small that is even very difficult to accommodate ourselves inside it. It is difficult and also pitiful to think on the space of our mind. So we must expand our mind as bodhisattva does. Understanding on  need of happiness and peace is for all sentient beings like as we desire equally. By knowing happiness is important for you how dare can you ignore the happiness of other by being selfish?

In the deep touch of Bodhichhita practice
we must think all living creatures are equal, we must know and experience this by sharing the same suffering through sharing the sense of connectivity inside our mind. Nonetheless we all have the root of becoming the Buddha as the  little Buddha is inside our mind dwelling aye with us.

There are many things in our lives and we don't remember it all. Because though the life is eternal living, our body and shape are not permanent. For one life we have to undergo the changes of million forms till we reach to the last state "nirvana". So we forget who did and what. That is quite interesting sometime to think on it but how forgetful are we to forget on what we had during our breakfast and how can we remember of our past lives? But we can remember if we follow the deep practice of Bodhichhita. Say like reincarnation and Tulkus, they know everything of their past living. That is the power of Bodhichhita.

So in the thousands realm of living, using i don't remember is an excuse of being ignorance for millions of lives.  To be considered every living has an relationship of familyhood in every live, so for the connection everyone of us is related one another. By this it is not only unfair to let them suffer but also an illogical in the circle of Bodhichhita practice.

The notion of "if I alone survive then let other suffer" is the most selfish notion. Such thinking grows to our own bad karma. The very understanding of what goes will comes around. So resulting in suffering on this Samsara endlessly. In the context of Bodhichhita charyavatara; it says the Buddha got an enlightenment taking care of other. This clearly shows how it is and hint us that taking care of other is also the best way of taking care of oneself. As said karma is the only known blessing get of the God.

"We sentient being, by taking care of ourselves remain in this kind of condition, while Buddha and enlightened person by taking care of other are in the state of enlightenment. The fruit of being egotistical and selfish is to stay in samsara. The fruit of taking care of other is enlightenment". This is clearly noted by the great bodhisattva Shanti deva.

By then if we check ourselves on our thinking and action, it is obvious that we are always taking care of ourselves in every minute we step forward; we consider ourselves as important, and it appears as if we are escape from death. So knowing live is impermanent and death is certain and always winning, how to die is on our way of living.
May God bless you all

How to improve my vocabulary to improve my spoken language.

"Using of vocabulary in the substitute of another word for the structure of vernacular is like the jewelleries wore by Celoperata during her Royal wedding". 
            Auth Sangay Tshewang.
Abstract;
The question on how to improve my vocabulary to improve my spoken language keep me in an awkward state of mind for numbers of years. I have encountered like this kind of questions in my mind with the contradiction of my own experience- my professional ability to create question but not in creating the answer, unless I did my own research with my resources. 

At the beginning it was my inconsistent  learning merely of wondering what to do or study.  Sometime I spent whole day trying to remember the sentences of my dialogues with friends and of a day events. What I await was all incomplete research on the question but my mind never put the hope of give up on it. So countless of hours on days and nights had showed me some hope of finding answer to the question.  But still vogue to pen the list.

Whatsoever I felt the urge to do research it and took the step forward on action. The key point was that by my research I had a hope of helping thousand of readers with solving the question of my same. So in doing action my research have varied my writing methods and speaking fluent. So I hope for same to my fellow readers.

1.  Introduction of the research concern;
For the thousand of years learning language has never been so easy like the learning of other topics. Although the experts has revealed learning of language as the single topic with composition of few alphabets, in it's vital touch, from the millions of years it has come as an infinite history. Nobody knows how the language come to the purpose of language. So in the study of thousands of subjects, if physics can be the king of subjects then the study of language can be the Queen of subjects. This compression is frequently being used by the linguistics while core touch of language is hard to unearth. So shall we consider the same. 

However if someone is looking for the trips for improving vocabulary weather to strength or broaden it for the personal growth of spoken language, first at the focus of self-it depends on the enthusiasm and commitment to learn regularly the new words. 
 
Of course the desire of improving the quality of spoken language depends on the usage of proper vocabularies but the question frequent here is how to improve on the usage of vocabularies memorability. 

2.  Why it is the concern;
So based on the difficulties of improving the usage of vocabularies and improvement on the sense of communication by spoken language, the concern i got to share together are; 
a) Improper usage of virtual meaning of vocabularies to the extend of grammatical order.
b) Improper pronunciation on the words then leads to the communication gap.
c) Unable to understand the words and its meaning in mid of conversation.
d) Unable to use the words in proper space and time.
e) Not able to spell. These are the few regular basis flaws creates by the endless of generation despite their concern and attitude on solving it. But the dreams are of experts. Although the few experts seems to use properly without all those mistakes and problems millions learners are glued with such mistakes unconditionally. 

3. Share the evidence that supports your concern. Why do you want your overcome.

For example to make an understanding more easy and convenient for both ends,  -by the thousands of people on the word receive, rhythm, sieve they spell "recive", "rymth" and "sive" respectively. Like wise in the frequent year backs a student of eight grade from Bhumthang dzongkhag has spelled the word water as "watar". Such concerns has been only a concern of how can we improve vocabularies on the other hand to improve spoken language? We are slowly losing the nature of taste in learning language.

So in support of my line researcher Randall S. Hansen has said;  " Only if you expand your knowledge and use of words you will be able to communicate more clearly and concisely like,  people will understand you more easily and increase the perception that you are intelligent person". So it is much important to spell the words in correct space and time to clear the message inside without confusion. 

So if it happens in all people while with conversation then the problem of miscommunication between the gap willl be very minimal. So however my research focused on it with the extended goal of endless time in my mind.

4. What literature has to say about such concern;
With my time on research I have kept the record of every possible answer to the question I come across and discussed among the friends. However possible literary answers to the improvement of the concerns are;
A.  Reading the books or articles.
B.  Listing every word you come across while reading. 
C.  Learning how to make sentence out of your new words.
D.  Write some articles using the vocabulary.
E.  Giving the time for conversation with friends.
F.  Checking the every phonetic  for every word. 
These are the few solutions to the vogue of my mind. Nevertheless my explanation will be as much as possible with information in later coverage. 

5. What is your research main questions and sub questions.
For these now, my key questions for the answer appeared are; 
A. Time and dedication. To improve the vocabularies and spoken language is the time and dedication are the right combination? Based on it I have done my research. 
B. Pronouncing and phonetic. Is phonetic the important thing to learn the vocabulary?
The answer I got was it is the mandatory.  
C. However writing, reading, talking and spelling in correct words are always been my priorities questions of the research.  

Thursday, 23 June 2016

22 Lossage, xxi

Love is the hardest subject if one can study
It can be a simple lesson if we listen to words
If one do a research it will be the longest chapter
If not, if one fall on it, it will be a pain, The pain.
The blood, The tears and the war zone. As known-
Love have a order, it have a sympathy and a rude.
Order, The likes and dislikes, it have accordingly
And the brightness of sympathy wouldn't be as long
Till the end of relationship by the death and fire and
Divorce and the law-everything have a potential
Potential to change by even a small word of mistake
when one analyse on it, it is hard to find-get-and see
And a simple to know with the practical one goes,
One day love, a day care, a day dates and another sex.
After and faith up, then the war, and as goes the pain.
For all, if knows love is a formula for happiness
That gives you a peace, but not for all as for blindly
When love builds way one must pillar with compassion.
In both happiness will be certain for peace,
The purest desire of live for life and the most for death.
Shall the understanding of love be with mercy And-
Shall lover like us be free of pain and rain of tears.

Wednesday, 22 June 2016

22 Lossage xx

The perfection of human life is to live,
Then should the live to be peace and happy
of course the way of love should be plain
And plain must be understood and studied well.
Thousand fall in love but not with the destiny to run
And lead the love to the ends of love in family,
But ends with the lost of virginity and its taste organs.
Millions dead were by love and countless of fights,
So how could the love make human live peace?
Should i go wrong to you, but i am right aye-
By saying love is a highway to the hell we make:
Love is a root to the fruit of egoism, greed and self,
And a seed of the root of fighting, killing and bloods.
Better than love one is the best- the best from bests.
And my philosophy just on the compassion.
The mercy of pain and joy for the brief-
Of sure the way of millions of greatness had gone,
Truly had been in love but understood the core meaning,
Of love is to give the feeling of sympathy to the opposite,
Pillar the way of courage in the opposite, the lover
Of course the respect of own rights and individualism,
And the concern, love should develop its empathy on its lover.